Tuesday, April 18, 2006
I'm not sure whether I wanna blog anot.
My life now is so terrible...
Why must it happen to me?
I love my mummy so so much. I'm so afraid to lose her. I really do. Though tears don't fall when I knew about it, but.. deep inside, it's so hurting, sad... heartbroken..
I really really pray hard that she'll get well.
I'm even thinking of plans to be totally independent. I'm working right now.
I don't get pocket money from her. That's alright.
I pay for my own food and transport. That's good.
I'm even thinking of paying my own handphone bills.
I'm thinking of getting a tuition near my workplace or somewhere near, so I could earn more and not get any money from my mum.
I'm willing to work harder.
So that her burdens are lesser.
Best of all, I really really want her to quit her job and just rest well.
While writing this, I'm feeling very sad. and yes, I finally cried.
Actually, during Good Friday, I cried during church.
I pray every night. Thinking of her all the time.
But why am I still so slack?
I wish I had studied harder and did well for 'A' levels. I missed by one grade for her expectations of my results.
I really hoped that I can get into ACCT. course.
Love,
Sara` @ 11:22 PM
Sweet Nineteen! Complex. FLOWERPODDER. obviously blogger. Crazy.
SHE LOVES
herself.
her family.
Tze Yeong Kelly Kenn Roy Claryce Shafiq.
SAKURA SURIOPTO SKYLINE.
BFTs.
my darlings(TRSVJ).
to read blogs.
to shop online.
outdoor activities. sports.
MTV.
watching HK drama serials.
to play online games. Yahoo games.
music. JAZZ, oldies, love songs.
Backstreet Boys. THE CLICK FIVE.
her room. her laptop. her handphone.
Of all, GOD the most!
P.S Of course not forgetting
MING YONG!